-By Ebony, IG: @ebunnie24
Just for a moment I had to step away from social media platforms. With every posted picture comment or share, it was a reminder of what I have yet to check off my list of accomplishments. And what has not happened for me yet. Social media can easily be a tool that works against us and our positive thinking if we allow it and don’t check ourselves at the door. When I should have been celebrating with someone or inspired by something I felt myself becoming agitated and frustrated. And with those feelings came other feelings of misplacement, lack, unsuccessfulness and so on.
As the weekend progressed I was reminded my timeline is not everyone else’s timeline, and that agitation and frustration are choices!! They are responses and we can control. There are typically bigger and deeper seeded issues in which we are responding to, not the situation at hand.
We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.
What are my issues then?? I guess it would be good to identify them, so I can align what I may see as a need or lack in my eyes. Learn to align it to what God says about me and my “need” so I can respond from a posture of certainty, in knowing what God says is true of me.
I’m not sure if I shared it before but the two biggest dreams in my life is to have a family of my own, husband kids and to be in a place of financial success just above having just enough. That’s all I wanted. Every other dream well it can or doesn’t have to happen if I have those two. God that’s a good enough deal. Right!
Just thinking and talking about money, debt and credit brings some slight discomfort for me, I remember habits, cycles and situations of my family from my childhood that I vowed would never happen to me and my family I will do what I must make sure of it! I found it a struggle to move from the posture of just enough of something to a place of overflow and increase.
Well I don’t have the family yet, and I’m working to maintain and improve my finances currently. I’m not at the point of being able to travel where I want when I want but I have made it to the point I can do what I want when I want with fewer guidelines in the name of treating myself LOL. I’m working on that too.
I have identified myself as falling in-between Expectations and Reality,
For just the dreams god has places on my heart, he reminded me he must be present and to do so I must make him manager not myself. And as he is manager it’s his expectations I need to see my life through.
God has open many doors placing me in positions and giving me opportunities to further myself career wise. Plans for multiple incomes if I were to see it that way. Addressing any suspicion regarding finances. Or I could just state “But God I didn’t ask you for that.” I have had the option to add mentors and accountability partners to my support to help me along my journey. So, I can have the results financial that I have asked from him.
God has placed me in relationships with others to improve my skills in maintaining any relationships obtained while on my wait for a husband. How can you expect to maintain anything without the skills? Communication, Endurance, Listening etc. If only I see it that way. Opportunity to be a leader to grow confident in his words and works so I can be used for his glory.
Lord I refocus my eye on you, and your plan you have for me. Continue to transform my perspective to be more like yours. I thank you in advance for what you have in store for me. Thank you for going ahead of me with protection and provision, pathing the way for me. I will continue saying Yes and Amen to your will and not mine.
Now all glory to God, who is able to keep you from falling away and will bring you with great joy into his glorious presence without a single fault. All glory to him who alone is God, our Savior through Jesus Christ our Lord. All glory, majesty, power, and authority are his before all time and in the present and beyond all time! Amen