Would you even know it when it comes…?

By Ebony Eugene, IG: @ebunnie24 @lavenderlemonade18 

We all have something we are waiting on. Things and events, we have attached timelines to. “Our timeline” Anticipating promotions, a husband, families and vacations around the world. We call those positive stressors where I work. With stress comes a play on your imagination, your thoughts, your words over yourself and perceptions, which leads me to ask, would you be able to recognize the very thing you are asking God for in your current state?

I have recently been reminded on many occasions that I am not waiting on God to move he has already gone before me. Rather he is waiting on me. So, this week I have been pondering on that thought and if that’s the case there is something in the season I need to be learning, improving, or tool that needs sharpening. I asked myself just as I have asked you, if God moved when I saw fit, or when I ask, would I even recognize it or would I pass it up? Would it have gone over looked because I was not in a matured walk with him to even notice how his gift differs from anything the world has to offer.

How do you know that it is a God’s gift?

How do you know that a door has been, God opened?

Think of it this way just as you have given gifts you put that individuals name on it. Their title … a label. So, what are Gods names for you? Let’s take a look at a few verses…

Song of Songs 4:7 – You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way.

John 14:27 – I am Leaving you with a gift- peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So, don’t be troubled or afraid.

Also, how do you know your residence from your neighbors, an assigned address Right? your own designated location. Where is God promising you will be? Check this out…

Psalms 91:1-3 – Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him. For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease.

Romans 8:37 – No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

God’s Language! It’s the key we must make ourselves familiar with it, so we can notice our prayers, gifts and open doors in our daily living. What does it sound like? Uplifting, love, guidance. What does it look like? Trust, confidence, peace and protected

We are already familiar with societies language for us, and some maybe the language of parents or a past teacher growing up. Lack, alone, who cares, fear and anger. So, it is easy for us at times to be comfortable in picking gift labels with those names or walk through those doors. But, that’s not what God intended for us. It’s important for us to study our word, worship God and pray daily because in those moments there is direction. In His direction we will find our familiarity to be able to notice God’s moves presence, and will for our life on a daily.

Share in the comments -What names do you struggle to realize God is calling you?


Stolen Gifts …

By Ebony Eugene IG: @ebunnie24

This week I found myself in a bind. I was excited as my week started, I am in a great position lately in my relationships, my finances my spirit man, over all just good vibes. Like I explained to the ladies I had gifts for them and was excited to see their reactions and smiles just pure joy. It was a gift for me to be in the position to give as it was a gift for them to receive. But that opportunity was taken from me when someone went into my car and stole them. Some would say it’s my fault you did leave your door unlocked. Others would agree, yes you should be upset. And only if you know who it was I know you would have something to say and would react.

But the crazy thing is I couldn’t stay mad too long as God spoke to me he asked it doesn’t feel good does it when gifts you have in place for someone are taken away does it? I give gifts daily and they are taken from me, they are not able to reach the full potential that I had anticipated for them. Due to circumstance, influence of other people, and situations. What are some gifts that I give?

Galatians 5:22-23

But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. There is no law against these things.

So, let me ask you,

What are you currently experiencing?

Who are you entertaining?

What has happened to you in your past?

Are you feeling or siding with your sinful nature, hostility, selfishness, jealousy, impurity, and or division? How many of these traits do we revert to as a response to the lack of power or control in your lives? Are they the only way to respond? Are our responses misuse of God’s gifts?

Just as life continues we will be place in situations, circumstances and around people who put us in positions to choose to work through our spiritual gifts. Stay motivated and committed to continue moving within that posture. As Gods plans are bigger than anything we can imagine. And it’s not just affecting us as Gods gifts are also for us to share with others.

Galatians 5:13

For you have been called to live in freedom, my brother and sisters. But don’t use your freedom to satisfy your sinful nature. Instead use your freedom to serve one another in love.

Hey share in the comments some ways you reflect that helps you to choose daily to work through your spiritual gifts and not sinful nature?

It’s My Birthday!!

This month last year I decided. I made the choice. I took the stand not to settle for ordinary, to stop moving based off feelings a place of self-effort. It may seem so simply and maybe even small to others, but this month 2017 God made things and placed emphasize on activities in my life to me. Let me paint the picture.

I had been in a relationship with Dude on and off for 5 years, we decided to move in together as it would “benefit” both parties financially and we’re always together anyways. My mistake. There I went, Ms. BA in Social Work ready to solve and gain all resource to any issue, I seen. Fast forward to my birthday month October 2017 God was already moving and working in me making me uncomfortable in the current situation I was in since around May yet I shrugged it off  “we have come this far, we can work it out” not this month God showed it to me like a movie. And it still replays for me clear as day.

I was given the opportunity to celebrate my birthday 2016 with church family as they celebrated our pastor’s birthday they included me in the celebration and song  I was made to feel special, welcomed and wanted. Nothing I can truly say now looking back, that I had in my current relationship.  Back to October 2017 I had a choice to make this year, God clearly stated you cannot pick both sides this time. Either you stay where you are currently. Or will you rock with me full heartedly? This year the church decided to celebrate our pastor’s birthday on my actual birthday weekend. And like a dummy I chose to stay with Dude who has never celebrated me on this day or any other. Even though my church family has. I PLACED MY HOPE IN THE WRONG THING!  When word got back to me that my name was on the cake and people where looking for me. It hurt, it pierced my heart left a life changing scar I felt even smaller than before. How could I let down family that had my best interest at hand? How could I stand up friends moving in the same direction as me, and have an understanding of faith behind God’s love for each of us, Just how? What kind of person had I become?  What life have I SETTLED for? This cannot be it, this cannot be my purpose! And just as expected, and yet again ignored, Dude had nothing planned for me to do that day not even a meaningful gift. That was it my mind was made up God. I’d describe this as God is  stirring, his works in my life, he is coming back alive in me. I started dreaming again, it was like an awaking had happened inside of me. Sleeping Beauty, it’s time for you to wake God whispered.

From then on I vowed never to miss out again on anything especially if God is at the center.  Since then things have change for the better I am no longer in that Situationship, what I thought I lost the Lord has blessed me more than double in godly friendships. Yes, I’m still waiting for my Mr. Right but I understand it’s not worth risking my peace, joy and purpose to have it right now. ‘IT” being any relationship I can muster up in self-effort. You all know where to find me this October 2018, that’s right celebrating life with the ones I love the most, my family and my friends As God continues to show himself marvelous in 2018. He is not done yet and I’m excited to see what’s in store.

Chapter 31 here I come. Happy Birthday to Me!




Big Girls Do Cry…

This week has been unsettling to be honest with you. I know, I should be at the peak of my joy and excitement. I have my girls by my side and we just started a podcast. Feedback has been good, and the support great. But tell that to my feelings. This week I have had thoughts of being left behind, not having enough, and things just not working out on my behalf. My mind has been cycling, day in and day out. Speaking negative word to myself and no motivation to push forward, past my feeling and in with faith. My feelings got the best of me I admit!

Where is my help? How do I gain my strength? Where is God in this?

Have you been struggling with your feelings this week?

°Needing validation from others?

°Feeling drained, little joy, no peace?

°Questioning if what you have is enough?


It’s true, we are human we have feelings, and this is life its bound not to go our way, or as planned. So, it’s okay to be down and out, maybe even cry some. You deserve it. You have been standing strong for this long. Giving it all you have. Its hard not to fall in the cycle.

How to restore feelings to align with your faith:

  1. Stand firm in your choice knowing Gods working all things for your good.
  2. Meditate on Gods words to place them in your heart; for out of the heart your mouth speaks you can declare over yourself the promise you know he has for you even when you don’t feel it.
  3. Avoid isolating, continue to commune with like-minded support for your encouragement can be found here.
  4. Create purpose, you are needed, find ways to fulfill the need of wanting to be wanted by serving in areas of need in your community or church, Journal- write it down for reflection later to notice what maybe small successes. Daily Devotional- start reading scripture, find a devotional on your bible app, commit to a daily reading. Create a play list- make note of good worship songs to get your mood together also some songs that just get you HYPE for Jesus!
  5. Daily, create routines to refuel, God doesn’t make you do his will yet it our choice, make routines to die daily to what is our normal. Negative thinking, complaining or separating. Choice to react different this time.


So today I can say after a few days focusing on the bad things and what’s not happening for me. I have made the choice to die to self. Refocus on the bigger picture God has drawn out for me in which I am not the center of, yet his people are.

My prayer: God to forgive me, for you have a calling on my life you are all seeing and all knowing. I will remain in the passenger seat, allowing you to guide me and take me where I need to be, to be utilized for your works your people and things bigger then I can imagine. I can’t do this in my self-efforts, it’s a proven fact as I look back on my life. You have purpose for me, you have good influences for me and you have great blessings my way, I will not postpone my future in you by getting in the way. Every dream you placed on my heart will come true, just in your pace not mine. Jesus, I thank you for what will happen today and in advance for what’s in store to come. Amen.

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Love Languages…..

Song of Solomon 4:1

You are beautiful, my darling, beautiful beyond words your eyes like doves behind your veil. Your hair falls in waves, like a flock of goats winding down the slopes of Gilead.

As I explored the book Songs of Solomon, songs written by King Solomon during his reign expressing love between a married couple this week as a devotional in which the passage above was pulled. I reflected on how I would love someone to say and think highly of me, to be detailed and confident that works for me. Oh, how nice that would be. I am sure I would hold myself to an even higher standard. I would even hold my head high.

I guess I am just waiting on my turn? Where is he at lord? Why hasn’t this happened for me yet? Time is ticking you do see that right God?

And like a whisper a few days later God spoke to my heart and stated why wait? Why are you looking for someone else to say and think this way of you? It’s something you struggle with daily in how you see and view yourself? How will you know what anyone else is saying about you if you don’t have an understanding and clarity of the love language for yourself to yourself? Will you know if it’s real or heart-felt? That can lead to deception again.  Are you prepared to stand firm on Man’s words or God’s word?

To be totally transparent I have recently been struggling with accepting compliments, and positive affirmation from others:

  • I appreciate you
  • I am proud of you
  • I couldn’t do this without you

I always say to myself; they are just saying that, I can always be replaced, there is some one better, this can’t be for me, I don’t deserve it, ah they are just saying that to make me feel good in this moment. But as I continue to build character within myself.


  1. To get in a place I can respond with more than just a thank you to any positive words provided to me. Thank you is just so generic to me it’s a comfort and cheap go to phrase.
  2. Be able to remind myself daily of Gods promises and thoughts of me, to deflect any negative thoughts in any moment.

We all yearn, desire, and at times expect those words and praises from other people but never take the time out and acknowledge them within ourselves.

What are your strengths, your beauty, or purpose? What has God said about you that you can know without any doubt are true.

Take the time and remember; take the act of reattaching God’s words to yourself:

Matt 5:3-12

The Beatitudes

“God blesses those who are poor and realize their need for him,[a]
for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
God blesses those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
God blesses those who are humble,
for they will inherit the whole earth.
God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice,[b]
for they will be satisfied.
God blesses those who are merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
God blesses those whose hearts are pure,
for they will see God.
God blesses those who work for peace,
for they will be called the children of God.
10 God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right,
for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.

11 “God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. 12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.